Life Week #82 - Old me, old emotions

I hate being emotional

They say that age makes you more aware of your emotions due to life experience and a general increase in wisdom. I can partially agree with that - some decisions I make are definitely more reasonable compared to the old times (although some other decisions are not 🤪).

To give an example, this week I decided to cancel signing a deal to rent a garage. I felt that I wanted a garage to help organize the stuff we have in our flat, I won the auction to rent it from the city but then I realized that the price is not that small and my actual needs are not that extensive. If I were younger, I'd be afraid/ashamed to reject signing a deal once I won the auction, but the older me calculated everything and made a different decision.

However, there are some areas in my life when nothing changes with age. To give an example, my emotions related to my wife are pretty constant (even when reaching 15 years of the marriage soon 😱) and that makes me extremely jealous in some situations that I should be more trustful and calm. I had a tough end of this week when my wife had a high school graduation anniversary party with old friends in a typical crazy atmosphere while I realized at the same time that we had no opportunity to party together for the last... 17 months??? 🤯

I hate being emotional, I'd prefer not to be emotional at all, but it seems to be one of the roots of my nature which will stay with me forever. Well, shit happens 🥺

Summary

✅ Continued chess developments with daily trainings

✅ Continued physical training focusing on running while arm is injured

✅ Agreed to sell the flat

⛔️ Cancelled a deal to rent a garage

Plan for week #83

♟ Continue daily chess training

💪 Continue physical training

🏠 Sign the premise to sell the flat