Life Week #85 - First forty

It's just the beginning it's not the end...

I'm forty. I take a daily bunch of pills, I visit the psychotherapist, I have my favorite shopping market, I have my routines, (finally) I have my voice and sometimes also the opinions, and, somehow I feel the age. I don't feel as young as I was even 2-3 years ago. Something has changed. Maybe it's the medical state of my organism, maybe some kind of tiredness, maybe it's my middle-aged crisis, but I feel different. I was superstressed days before the anniversary, but now I feel a bit more relaxed but still, different compared to before.

I am not young anymore, I am middle-aged. I'm not as super healthy as I was before - but I am already taking care of my health. I feel good - my weight is kinda perfect, my physical form is not that bad.

I have the feeling that the only thing that is missing here is the feeling of success - I'm still dreaming of being successful. For some of the people in my surroundings I might be considered as successful but I don't feel it. This is a real thing I should work on with myself in the forthcoming time. But how?

Summary

✅ Continued chess developments with daily training

✅ Organized & celebrated my birthday

❌ Failed to take some decisions on new flat purchase

❌ Failed to start focusing on business

Plan for week #86

♟ Continue daily chess training

📱 Start focusing on business, again