My Week #162 - Unsure

Confidence leads to planning, planning leads to execution

about the frustration caused by the many expectations and the lack of money to execute them. The events from this week made me forget about this frustration due to the surprising set of events making my current base contract not as solid as I would expect it to be. It may even happen that I'll be terminated tomorrow 🤷

This is kinda absurd situation for me. For my whole career, I've never been in a situation where someone considered my layoff. And here I am today, cooperating with a huge corporation, and feeling treated like a number I am. My work, my engagement, my attitude, and the effects of my work may be not important at all - the more important is to meet the numbers in someone's spreadsheet.

This is a huge lesson for me. I accepted lots of non-effective things that happen here, slow development, and lots of absurd political things that happen here and there, but the lack of confidence for tomorrow is something that makes me wonder.

The first conclusion is that with the lack of confidence in work, I need to be more careful with the spending that somehow clears the expectations. My mind feels kinda better already.

The second conclusion is that this is probably the time to start doing my own projects. If not now then when? If I survive tomorrow the next stressful moment is in the next 3 months.

Is it time for the action?

Summary

✅ Continued daily chess trainings ✅ Tested new learning technics

Plan for week #163

♟ Continue daily chess training using new learning technics 💪 Slowly return to daily fitness trainings